Heart and logic

Late nights without you by my side

Something doesn't feel right 

Without you in my sight 

My eyes don't get heavy 

My mind won't slow

Apart me knows that this is how I grow

My heart desires the comfort and my mind is telling me no

Salt in my wounds

There's men with eyes that move you, with this skin that you beg for, with hair that you want to get tangled in. 

The maybe he sings or tells stories so eloquently... Either way he is charismatic, he's even romantic. 

The way he touches your skin sends lightening through your whole body, the kisses that go from your head to your toes. Time seems to pause while you stare into each other's eyes and make love. There seems to be no greater euphoria. 

But sometimes..... The men I speak of have no soul or is it no heart? 

they have perfected to art of seduction. 

And when the next option is presented, which trust me... It will be presented because we live in the decade of tinder, constantly bombarded with the next best, or what we could have. 

He will walk away, but before he nimbly walks away 

He will touch your heart one more time, he will take it into his hands and with a smooth movement he will add another cut, He doesn't care because the whole time he's touching your face he has no idea he's actually just poured salt into the wound from the last man. 

He will try to sound soothing while telling you it's over. 

He's so enveloped in himself

He has no idea what love is.

For him right now it's filling the void that his upbringing left him with....

But I thinks that's what we are all doing.

So here I am, realizing I've been so blind all these years. Giving my heart, body, mind, and soul to men who are not capable of the same. 

I'll probably make this same damn mistake again, until it's a lesson learned🙏🏼

Here's to learning🍺

Here's to heart break🍺

And here's to being a silly romantic🍺

Empower(women)t

I refuse to be what you think I should be.
If I wanna wear makeup, I WILL
I will never makeup most of the time.
I will not shave, but sometimes I might.
I won't poison my body with toxins from food, or beauty products.
I will not eat a dead animal nor will I wear it.
DON'T JUDGE ME.
I will do what I want and so should you.

Finding myself

         For years now I have found myself in relationship
after relationship. It has been beautiful, transforming, eye opening, and completely heart breaking. I dated someone who was my best friend, I dated someone who I thought was my soulmate, and I dated someone with no expectations. each relationship ended with tears and pain. There were so many loving and positive times I shared with these men. I also found myself questioning what I was doing every. single. time.

      Its funny though because whenever I find myself spending time alone, I find myself to be happier. Is that mean? I literally find myself filled with passion, motivation, and bliss.
I spend more time with friends, who lets face it... will ALWAYS be there for you. 

    

2016 goals

. LOVE with my whole heart

 don't be held back to sharing my 

unconditional love.

. HUG more

. Kiss more

. Sing more

. Climb more

. Get naked and jump in the water

. Eat food that heals

. Travel far

. Leave my comfort zone 

. Make it to costa rica

I knew this was coming.

I told myself the story of how this would end many times

It doesn't make it easier

because I still fucking love every inch of you 

I always will

I know are paths are straying

thats how it has to be

theres no stoping it

so run wild and free and don't look back

I'll be doing the same

and i know this isn't the end

or goodbye

just...... see you later.

your lips, they kiss me so gently, so filled with passion.

your arms, they hold me with love and care.

you hold me tighter if I'm sad, if I'm happy, and when I'm worried.

you have this light and love that doesn't stop shining in my life, when your hundreds of miles away

I see you in the clouds, the leaves, my hands.

I don't know what this all means, But I will never stop loving you.

I know nothing is permanent, everything must come to an end (on earth)

but since that first day I saw you, with your messy hair, no shoes, and no shirt.

I knew something that you can't put into words or understanding. 

I knew that maybe I have known you before,

or maybe that I would know you for the rest of my exsistance

there is something different this time.