Don't you know yet? It is your light, that lights the world.

As the year comes to an end, I must put into words and intentions of what my next steps in life are. I could not be more happy about life and I am very ready for my next journey. Its time for LIFT OFF.
. Treat my body like the temple it is.
. Travel as far and long as I possibly can.
. Love the people who love me.
. Leave the past behind.
. Appreciate all the ups and downs and always remember, I can do anything That I believe I can do.
. Give to others but never forget about myself.
. Learn to read Tarot cards.
. Shine so bright and help others out of the darkness.

Being a women I'm am force fed images of what I should look like. When I was young I wanted blue eyes and blonde hair, I felt that I was not beautiful enough or tall enough. As I got older I realized that people with blue eyes who I would complement always would say to me really? Cause I love brown eyes. I thought perhaps they were just trying to make me feel better. But maybe that's not true, maybe we have all been brainwashed to simply want what we don't have. On tv in children's shows the children wear makeup and have their hair done, yet that is not something parents allow until a child has reached a certain age. So why must we make people feel like they will never reach those standards. But even more so why must we feed into and judge others for not being the ideal image? This weekend I talked to a girl who rambled on about how hippie she was. Then she went on to make fun of another girl for her weight. Seriously?! Does that make you more skinny? Does that make you feel good or bring any purpose to your life? No it doesn't so before you go about preaching what you are Remember everything that comes along with being that. "Hippie: They possess a core belief set revolving around the values of peace and love as being essential in an increasingly globalized society, and they are oftentimes associated with non-violent anti-governmental groups." Being surrounded by women in schools and jobs has proven to be one of the most challenging yet rewarding tasks I have ever been through, I have hated and I have been hated on. But as i began to simply appreciate all women for their own uniqueness I also have learned that we are all on our own journeys and at very different points In our journeys. I've met people that have a negative outlook and gossip like they are actually on reality tv. With those individuals I simply do not acknowledge, not because I hate them but because I have moved past that point and I choose not to be surrounded by that sort of talk. However I appreciate them regardless because they are some of the best teachers you could ask for. A reflection of the direction you must move towards. Basically love every part of yourself in a selfless way and learn to appreciate everyone else by remembering their own path is different then yours.

An agreement

Don't tell me who to be or how to act, I am a spiritual being having a human experience. If you try to change me I will only resist, its been this way since any of us were kids. Our parents say "don't do this" but we almost always do the opposite. It's the very same thing that happens in relationships. We are all evolving and changing, if we are not then there is no progress, but if you always expect someone to be the same person they were yesterday you are only setting yourself up for disappointment, which will lead to resentment. Let go of all expectations,  realize that at any moment your life or anyone else's could change, which could cause anyone to grow or become stagnant in growth. But if you are expecting them to be a certain way you will be disappointed. Always let people know how much you care for them in actions and be prepared to let them go. Don't ever cage a lion.

If you ever meet someone who makes the silence feel like home, or makes you smile when all you want to do is cry, or someone who will just listen, or someone who doesn't want to cage you, but rather be wild with you. I highly suggest you recognize just how vital this person is. This is a person who can transform your life, and change you.... Into the person YOU want to be.
 Life is full of surprises, the bad and good. And it never gives you what you want... Only what you need. Accept these times or moments with complete surrender and something beautiful will happen.

A karmic relationship

I gave you all that I had,
I saw your pain, so I tried to give you my happiness.
I saw your confusion, so I tried to give you my wisdom.
But I was confused too
I thought I could just give those things to you.
But I can't
I never could
Only you can heal yourself
The best thing I can give you
Is our memories
And now space
I must go, to heal myself
But also to heal you.
Please don't forget that all I wanted was for you to be whole.
This moment will build you stronger then you ever imagined.
Build yourself.

Letting it go

Have you ever walked into a room and just knew you didn't belong?
This is how I feel almost all the time. I appreciate everyone but I also have zero tolerance for negativity. If you lie, have no integrity, and love to spread poison I'll avoid you, try to break me and watch me grow stronger. It's time to move forward, My heart is longing for a home to call my own, but I have NO idea where that should be. I crave a home that everyone can call home when they walk in. It's time to figure out where my life is going. But Ahhh it's all over the place.... California, Washington, Oregon, another country?? 🙊 time to do some serious soul searching ❤️

Victim vs. warrior

Life is something that is incrediblely precious, every single person you come into contact with has a lesson to teach you. You can live life acting as though you are a victim of bad experiences, bad timing, or bad people. Or you can realize that it's a lesson you must learn. That's where evolution happens, I've meet a lot of really bad negative people. I thought that I didn't deserve to be treated however I was being treated. I realized that if I used those hard times to grow stronger and play the warrior role that I would start to see more positive things happen. I am constantly changing, I am thankful for the lies and pain and tears, It brought me to where I am.❤️ These last couple months I have met the most beautiful, loving, happy, adventurous human beings. All my beautiful sisters at school have taught me .... Just by being themselves.... How to appreciate the beauty and uniqueness in women. I'm no longer in competition I love to see them flourish in their own individual ways. I've met people who make me live fully in the moment. I love this life..

Being minimalistic

When I was 18 I got into my first serious relationship, it was exciting and I spent the following 4 years with the person I thought was who I would die with. As time went on I realized we had a beautiful friendship but that was it. When we broke up I gave up everything thing I owned ( couches, TVs, bed, home decor, clothes, and even my dog) the hardest part was giving him my dog :( everything else I couldn't stand to look at. I didn't want all that baggage! I moved back to my parents but I had also met a new guy who made me feel passion and excitement I basically lived with  him living out of a backpack for months, and not having my own room or shower. I could always go home, but that's not what I wanted. I wanted every second with him, to take care of him, to give him everything. I dove too deep, I fell too hard, and in the end my heart was broken and I learned what betrayal was. But I can not complain because it taught me the lesson I needed to learn in life. Now I'm living with my aunt, again with barely anything to my name,  but I have never felt more free in my life. I let go of everything familiar, started school, and am beginning the most transformative period of my life. I am thankful to have a strong mind, and a strong heart, I learned form my previous relationships. I now know what I deserve, I now believe that I do not need to rely on a man for my happiness. And I am loving the person I am today. I hope to spread this love and to meet new and exciting people to join me on my journey ❤️